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I'm thinking about canceling our home phone (land line) to save $50 per month. This prospect worries me a bit because I like the idea that my kid could call 911 if I had a stroke or something. This, folks, is called "free-floating anxiety."

I am thinking about showing up for the Fleet Feet 10k training that starts tonight. I doubt I will because I have fear.

I have this sensation that I'm late. I can't shake it. It's a dread and an anxiety, like I'm barely treading water and not where I'm supposed to be. Like I'm not doing well enough. Like I'm not making it. I am trying to simply observe this and not read a lot of meaning into it because if I do I'll probably make myself feel worse. I'm just looking at it from over here, observing my mental hamster running on my mental wheel. Get off the wheel, jackass.

I want to come back to these things, when I have more time:
http://www.simplicityparenting.com/category/beginning-to-simplify/
http://www.myrecipes.com/recipe/fruit-nut-chewy-bars-50400000109253/

I want to learn how to make my own yogurt, and I want to learn more about propagating cana lilies.

I want to make these (http://www.prudentbaby.com/2011/04/how-to-make-beautiful-dress-up-wings.html) for Asher, and a bigger pair for myself. This is a longshot.

And this is rad: http://theforestroom.blogspot.com/2011/04/lets-make-handpainted-window-star.html#comment-form

And this too, but I think I could improve on this: http://www.thatartistwoman.org/2010/03/woven-tree-wall-hanging.html

I don't get it. Such a mix of joyful stretching and striving and fun and negative self-talk.

Comments

misterjustin
May. 18th, 2011 06:01 pm (UTC)
In the hope that it helps - you can still dial 911 from a land line even if you don't have service. We're cancelling ours this month and will keep a wired land lane in the house just in case.
tshuma
May. 18th, 2011 06:10 pm (UTC)
Yes, I was just going to say this. They are required to enable 911 on any residential phone. Actually, I think any phone. Even my senior project android phones that have no cell plan have the ability to call 911.

Edited at 2011-05-18 06:27 pm (UTC)
sarabellae
May. 19th, 2011 03:48 am (UTC)
It does. I didn't know that. Thanks.

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